first time fill.. sorry its been soo long

So I want to apologies for not being around, I have been getting used to the band, turning 19, throwing a very huge party, and uni exams, and assessments.

BUT I STILL HAVE BEEN READING ALL ABOUT YOU GUYS! you are just soooo much strength and inspiration!

Today I am getting my first fill! I am very happy about that. because right now i am eating ust as much as i did before the band.. i am nervous about it. I am nervous about getting a needle, and i am nervous about bringing any food back up!

I HAVENT HAD TO REGERITATE ANYTHING.. sure i got some bread stuck but other than that i havent at all.

Just wanted to check in and let you know that i am all still here! and have been visiting all your pages..

its just very hectic! very hectic! xxxxx

Emotion negotiation

I am currently sitting in the car on the way home from a mother daughter weekend away. Bla nothing interesting. BUT I do apologise for crappy tipping I am on my phone.

I am finding the hardest part is emotional eating. I eat cause I hate feeling lonely or because it is a moment of not feeling good enough.. This is the only reason I over eat. And still I struggle with it. Yes sure I have no restriction but just havin the band in place I am so much more aware of why I binge eat. But I don't know how to deal with it. What can you do to get over it....

Like today in womens health magazine I read that to burn off the 4320 calories of eating a whole packet of tim tams would mean an hour cycle and an hour and a half walk! - yet still right now I would die for a timtam! I know the facts! Yet still I can't help and let my mind win?

I have tried doing some research to se what's out there to help. But there really isn't? Maybe hypnotherapy? Eek I don't know!

Did you go through this? Do you go through this? Are we ever able to release ourselves from it! Fingers crossed I hope so.


Hope your all well xoxox

One week of grazing!

HEY THERE!!

so still no weight loss but i would not be suprised if there was any weight gain!

My hunger is way way way way way up!

ohhh the craving of chocolate bickiies!! yummmo!

this is not helping me much...

but I have decided to do a bit of get a little give a little.

So untill friday this week I will let myself (graze) i refuse to go over board but you know how the milk and the cookies + plus get at least some exercise in! (might do 30 minutes on the bike this morning) then as the weekend comes in when we are heading to a mother daughter weekend away ITS FULL ON HEALTH FROM THERE leading up to my birthday THE next weekend. IT WILL BE EXERCISE EVERYDAY + plus good old fashion protein and vegies!


cause I am going to be the mighty king (SIMBA) and I just have to look the part!

WILL BE measuring my weight and progress on WII FIT! yes I know trivial! BUT STILL such a charm!

WILL let you know all about the weekend away
and my progress!!

love to all! xooxox

AND THE DOORS OPEN HELLO OLD FOOD!

ALL I WANT IS PROTEIN!

I AM BACK TO OLD HUGE MEALS! enjoying my foood wayyy! toooo much have to stay incontrol have to stay in control!

soo hard! the next 4 weeks are going to be such a test! HOW did everyone do this!

food is great at the moment! love it!

but hate it at the same time! gotta keep up my exercise! to get to my goal of my birthday!

love love love

Allie

33% of excess weight BEGONE!

WENT FOR MY 2 WEEK CHECKUP!

all healed well! except for the one in my belly button bit pusie yuck!

BUT had my last vision session today did lots of boxing!

I am still lucky enough to stay under 80kg! and i determined NEVER to go back there!

My eating has been meh.. getting more adventurous. risotto? omelette?

my surgeon told me i have lost 33% of my excess body weight! yayaya for that!

I am feeling great! energetic and really positive!

Just have to get through the crazy amount of uni assessments coming up. whilst trying to get to 77 kg for my birthday on the 24th! which i am throwing a rather large mad hatter tea party!

hope everyyone is going fantastic!

Thanks again for all the great support!

I spend soo much time reading all your great updates, I never get around to updating my own!

xxxx

Putting on weight.

Today I FINALLY got the courage to weigh in... and BOO :-(

PUT ON A KILO :-(

WHAT ON EARTH CAN YOU DO on puree to lose weight?

it is almost impossible.

I REFUSE TO GO BACK UP TO 80 I REFUSE!!!!!!

No Restriction

So I am 9 day's post op and have been through many ups and downs...

The hardest part would be the lows the thought that I had to be strong because I made the decision to have this procedure so if it hurts then That it is my fault. But That isn't true. I now realise that it is ok for me to cry. It is ok for me to feel pain and want to stay in bed all day because I feel like I have been carrying 3000 tonne.

Today I am feeling particularly low in energy.

But thats ok. I am going to accept this. Be mindful and accept that I am still healing...

I have no restriction... this could be for a number of reasons... To start with maybe my stomach wasn't that big to start with? or maybe I am just healing better? or maybe it is just the way it goes?

Today for lunch I ate half a mash potato with lemon n cracked pepper salmon mixed in plus a baby concentrate of corn peas and sweet potato A HUGE BOWL! and nothing... I could have gone on to eat more.

weird?

I would have never thought that it would be like this.

I have put on a kilo since going onto mushy food.

not my idea of greatness - I can tell this weight thing is going to drive me absolutely crazily bonkers!

But I guess there is much I can do but keep going on this rollercoaster - no where to jump off.

Hope all is well for all of you!

Allie